I recently complained to a friend of mine that somebody we knew got on my nerves because all the stories he told portrayed him in a flattering light. "Nobody wants to hear about how great your life is all the time, and about what a swell guy you are," I growled. Over the next few days, I realized that all around me, people were telling stories putting themselves in a positive light. Self-deprecation seems to be a dying art. In California, especially, the success-story dominates the conversation-scape. Even stories that start out being about mistakes and failures end in some kind of "lesson learned," so that in the end the speaker has "grown" from the experience. This "redemption story" is really a sub-genre of the success story. Perhaps it satisfies the same drive that makes people get "born again." Newsflash - it is not self-deprecatory to tell a story where you fuck up and then improve yourself. When people tell me stories where they come off looking vulnerable, foolish, mean, petty, terribly unlucky, and so on, I feel honored. It's the human equivalent of rolling over and exposing your tender underbelly. Pain, humiliation, insecurity, heartbreak, these are the things that bring us together. It's a cruel world, and I want to hear about it. Tags: bitch, musing
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